..i didn’t want to meet him that way. it was so unfair. i watched him like that, hanging on every word, looking at me in disbelief, ready to tell i’m insane and go away. it hurt me, really.
..but, hell. i was so stupid. i shouldn’t have told him the things i told him… am i so desperate, huh?
..perhaps, if i only met him at a different time and place and for a different reason, it would be friendship.. perhaps..