amputah. ang dami kong gustong sabihin pero di ko alam kung saan magsisimula. shet. cliche.
i couldn’t imagine myself all alone all throughout the week. i know my friends couldn’t fill the emptiness. i need him by my side.
i think it all boils down to this: i couldn’t live without him.
and i am currently on this process of blaming myself for what had happened. i was thinking that i was the one who’s responsible for his absences. i was the one who’s always clingy and needy and demanding. i dunno. crap.
i wish there was a mistake. and when i get back to QC on monday, he will be there to greet me.
and there’s a part of me that’s thinking i haven’t hugged him enough. i haven’t kissed him enough. i felt like my time with him was not enough. not enough. dammit.
kainis. ang dami kong gustong sabihin, pero hindi gumagana ng maayos yung utak ko. everything’s all jumbled up in my mind.
and everything’s about him, really.
i miss him badly…